Sunday, June 12, 2011

Shabbat dinner is served...

This last Friday night, I had company over for a Morroccan inspired meal. I served couscous with fresh veggies and an israeli spiced chicken. I really think it went over well.
We also had company over, I really like the idea of my home being filled with good friends and good conversations, it really is better that way, don't you think?
I am wanting to really focus on the practice of inviting people over every week for Shabbat dinner. This is part of my building a community of friends that is a safe place and welcoming place to be. I think that the most important thing is to keep connections with people who are important to you.
Since Alpha Male and I purchased a home and will be moving there in three years (I'm sure it will go faster than it seems)I want to work harder on forging long lasting relationships with people.

In other news, I am waiting to get my financial aide from FAFSA so that I can register for fall classes. I am thinking that if I can get some of the classes I need now, with the goal to re-enter school in a few years, if I want to do so, it will help me get my college degree.
I still plan to go to massage school but honestly, can you ever stop learning?

On the baby front, I got to go with my daughter to her doctors appointment and I got to hear the babies heartbeat, honestly, I almost started to bawl right there. I cannot fully express just how excited I am to meet my grandson when he makes his appearance into the world. He is already so loved and will always be so.

Friday, June 3, 2011

House

A couple of weeks ago, Alpha Male went to Las Vegas to house hunt. We had decided that we would like to purchase a home and live there when he retired. Back in October, we flew there and looked at houses and actually had found one that we placed an offer on but never recieved a response so we continued to look.
When Alpha Male was in in Nevada, he rented a car and drove up to a little town called Parhump and actually found a house that he liked but there are lots of creepy crawlies like tarantulas, desert roaches and centepedes.
Um, no.
Knowing that I could never live in a place that had those sorts of creatures living that close to us and keep my sanity, Alpha Male looked in Vegas and found a lovely house for us.
We offered less than they were asking because there were issues with the pool needing to be fixed.
The owners countered with a slightly higher price which included fixing the pool and we accepted.
The nice thing is, we are able to pay for the house outright so there will be no payments other than utilities and yearly taxes.

Now, I have three years until we move and I have to seriously knuckle down and get my schooling done so we can take off in three years and live in our home we just bought.
Until we move down, we will be letting my stepdaughter and her kids live there. Either that or we will get a renter into the place and hire a property management firm. Either way, I won't have to worry. Too much.

Wednesday, June 1, 2011

Very Tired.....

Lately, I have been very tired. Alpha Male seems to be concerned, I tell him that it nothing to worry about, and that's true.
Honestly, I am a bit concerned with how I will deal with both school and work but I figure I should just be able to power through it. Eye on the prize and all that.

Today, I dropped my daughter off at the airport, She is flying back to visit her dad,step mother and sister in Texas. I am just waiting for her to call me and let me know she has arrived safely. I always worry about her when she flies but even more so now that she is pregnant with my first grandchild.
I honestly hate flying, I have watched too many news reports about crashes and seen too many stories about how our pilots, the people we are trusting with our very lives, are paid less than a Taco Bell manager.

Today, I was thinking about the weather related tragedies that have been occuring around the country, it is so very sad, people losing their homes, their families, their very lives. I just hope that there is enough compassion in the world to help them get through these challenges.

Tuesday, May 31, 2011

Today, I took the husband into an agency called "Extras Only". They are, as the name may suggest, a casting agency that specializes in casting extras for films and television. We live in a town that the show leverage is filmed in. Now, I have never seen the show and I have no idea what it is about. I imagine I should at least try to catch an episode or two, just in case Alpha Male is picked as an extra.

In other news of my life....a couple of weeks ago, Alpha Male went to Las Vegas to do some house hunting. We live in the Pacific NW, which, while a beautiful place to live, is not a good place to be for someone who has asthma and other issues such as arthritis. Alpha Male agreed to wait on us moving there until I am through with school. This should take just about 3 years, if I do it right.
Anyways, while down there, Alpha Male made a couple of offers and we had not heard back. As it turns out, the banks like to wait until the end of the month to look at all offers that have come in and then they decide which offer to accept and do so on the first of the next month. I find it quite lovely that the banks are so eager to take peoples homes when they are a bit late on payments but they have no issue with taking their time in accepting an offer. You would think that they would actually move quickly when an offer that is good comes their way. Guess we can never figure people out, can we?
I think I will take a creative writing course in the Fall, I think it can go far in making my blogging pop more!

Sunday, May 29, 2011

Essays....

Last week, I met with my Rabbi who I am working with for my conversion. I feel that it was a good meeting and I really like him. I was given the assignment to write an essay about me. He doesn't want the essay to be about why I am converting, but rather, how I got from my birth to sitting in his office 42 years later.
I am a bit torn....My childhood was not good, it was not pretty and it was not happy. I am the survivor of mental, emotional and sexual abuse; Had I not been made of what I am made of, I would, I am sure, be dead or hooked on drugs. The fact that I made it to where I am, relatively unscathed, is a true miracle.
Do I tell this to the Rabbi and hope for the best or do I just omit that bit about me, a bit that is very large and has served to shape me into the very person I am today.
I would like to think that in the end....we are all truly products of our experiences and we should embrace those experience's for what they are rather than hide them and never speak of them again. This is something I need to seriously mull over.

In other news, we are starting up our weekly shabbat dinners. I am very excited and have so much fun thinking of what exactly I will do every week for food.

School is going well, I look forward to having the summer off to get my bearings and to plan out my strategy as far as my education goes. We will see how the summer pans out.

Life is a funny thing, it gives you just what you need, even if you don't know that you need what you are being given.

Saturday, May 21, 2011

Thoughts on Modern Orthodox Judaism....

I am compiling a list of questions I have for the Rabbi I am meeting with. I really don't think it will be a problem to attend Synagogue and to keep the Sabbath and to follow all of the holidays. I do think I will have an issue with learning Hebrew...heck, I have a hard enough time with English sometimes.
Also, what do I do if the Rabbi wants my husband to also convert? I have mentioned it to my husband and I don't know how he feels about it. Anyways, I am making it my goal to have a shabbat dinner every week. I will be needing to get my grocery shopping done on Thursdays after work, it would seem. That, of course, means shopping without the husband in tow. This also means that I need to actually make plans for shabbat dinners.
I am good at planning, sadly, I tend to plan for more food than I really need, but it does actually come in handy with not cooking on Saturdays, so I guess it's a win win situation.
I also need to start looking at Tichels ......in case I do actually do this, I will be needing my Rabbi to send a note to my boss.....this should be interesting.

Thursday, May 19, 2011

A New Direction.....

So, I am really really considering the return (I really dislike the term conversion in my case) to Judaism as an orthodox or Modern orthodox process. This is really something that I need to do for my own self.
Of course, I grew up attending church and celebrating Christmas, Halloween, Easter and I imagine that I should, to most people, find some sadness or conflict with my moving in this direction, but I don't. Lets face it, I'm not really that close to my family and I am sure that they aren't really concerned with what I do in my life so they definately won't be too concerned with this path I am on.
I meet next week with the Rabbi of the local Orthodox shul. I know this gentleman so I am rather excited.
Will report back.