It's Been a While

Many changes have occured. I am in the tail end of Introduction to Judaism classes. This is the first step towards reclaiming my "Jewish-ness". Within the next month, I will be starting classes to undergo a return/conversion into the Conservative stream of Judaism.
My oldest daughter has come to live with us....she is 20 and a good kid...she just fell on financial hard times, much like many Americans. Luckily, she has family who is there for her.

I don't see the kids anymore.....painful as it is, it is something I have had to accept. The last time I saw them, I gave him his 5th birthday gift, "Where the Wild Things Are". Inside the book I wrote "To Gannon, on your 5th birthday....Let your imagination take you anywhere you wish to go. Love Tabby". I got to read the book to him, reading was always something he and I did together.
My husband says that the past 5 years I was in the kids' lives, I made such a profound impact that they will carry it with them for the rest of their lives.
I have lots of pictures (over 4000 total) so I can always look at those. Sadly, they make me cry. As they were driving away that last time I saw them, the song by Flogging Molly, "If I Ever Leave This World Alive" was playing....I have it downloaded on my phone now so I can think of them whenever I want. Again, thinking of them makes me cry, but it's good tears.
Planning on going back to school in the Spring.....just have to get my ass in gear.